Just a little lighter…

Just the happy face of a girl who has officially lost 16 KILOGRAMS!! ⁣⁣

And whilst I’ve been saying all along it’s not about the weight… Hitting a milestone like 16KGS is definitely worth celebrating! ⁣⁣

I think it’s worth reminding myself & everyone reading this post that it has taken me over thirteen months to lose this weight. (No one week skinny teas here)…

I started over a year ago doing one swim a week & one yin yoga a week. I slowly built up my own confidence and fitness. Adding in more swimming & more yoga & then eventually boxing & HIIT classes. I’ve been seeing a GP & a dietitian. I track my calories. I manage my macros. I count my steps. I think mindfully about why food am about to eat. I meal plan. I mean prep. I eat a rainbow everyday! I work weekly with my amazing P.T Wendy from Phoenix Personal Development. And I’ve nearly completed the F45 Challenge (not sure now many dialysis patients with 5% kidney function have done that 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼). I’ve gone from not being able to walk up my front stairs to working out at least five times a week & sometimes up to eight! ⁣⁣

But I didn’t wake up 16 kilograms lighter after a juice detox or a quick fix calories restriction. I didn’t wake up one day and say I’m going to dead lift 30kg. It took time. And it is still a work in progress. The best part about all of this is when my alarm goes off I don’t go “ugh the gym”; I literally jump out of bed & smile because I am healthy enough to go to the gym! Working out & being healthy is a privilege & one I took for granted for many years. ⁣⁣

I’ve had many people asking me for the “secret”⁣⁣ of my weight loss. And I guess there are a few things I’ve learn along the way. ⁣⁣

The biggest thing I’ve learnt is consistency & to set small goals. There is no point waking up one day saying your going to go to the gym seven days a week if you have been in a year! It’s sort of setting yourself up for failure (in my opinion). Start small. Start with one gym session a week or one walk a week or one yoga class a week. Once you had achieved that goal you will feel empowered and inspired and you will naturally start adding in more sessions! ⁣⁣

⁣⁣You also need to find support around you. Be it friends, husbands, families, crèches etc… And everyone’s support system will be different so you will need to find what works for you. ⁣⁣

⁣⁣And finally for me it’s calorie / macro counting. Now I know this isn’t for everyone & I know intuitive eating is a really big things these days… BUT I was obese last year so I guess you could say I wasn’t really very intuitive with my eating 🙈 I enjoy calorie / macro counting because it allows me to make sure I am eating a balanced diet. I also have to watch my potassium, sodium & phosphate intake so recording helps keep all my blood levels stable. ⁣⁣

⁣⁣And finally go gently. This entire journey for me has been about listening to my body and going gently. Sometimes that means having a few days off & other times that means doing two sessions in one day. But I always go gently & treat my body with respect. I think that’s probably enough ramblings for one day 😆 Emmy Xx

On healing my “whole” self…

Over the last few years I’ve been working really on healing myself. Not my whole self (my kidney failure isn’t reversible); but my “whole” self. ⁣⁣

I started by increasing my therapy sessions. I spent time before I started dialysis doing lots of mental preparations. Learning how I could manage dialysis when the time came, the unknown of it all, the transplant, death… the works! I also started learning about mindfulness & treating myself with kindness.⁣ Hand on my heart kindness. ⁣⁣

Then slowly I started being mindful with what I ate & started increasing my exercise. Growing up I associated exercise with either winning (highly competitive) or as a punishment to lose weight! I felt like I needed to be “skinny” to be liked. Now I exercise because I can. Because it is a privilege to exercise. I exercise because I want to be strong. I don’t care about “skinny” I just want strength! I want to be able to pick up my children without hurting my back & play in the back yard without running out of breath. You know the everyday things we take for granted when we are healthy. I also know what it is like to be laying in a hospital bed feeling like I was drowning in my own fluid & unable to breathe. That why when my alarm goes off in the morning & I’m physically able to get out of bed, you better believe I go work out! ⁣⁣

I’m so proud of what I’ve achieved because I never imagined I could do it! I thought that I needed to wait until I had my transplant to feel strong. I’ve exceeded my own expectations & I’m stronger than I ever thought I would be. Ready to slay the day 🙏🏻 Emmy Xx