I’ve always had the mentally of when life knocks you down you get back up again. I don’t know if that’s because from the moment I arrived in this world I had to fight to be here. I had to fight for my life. I had to fight to be alive. I was born aContinue reading “Rock by rock. Day by day.”
Author Archives: emmyoneill
Just a little lighter…
Just the happy face of a girl who has officially lost 16 KILOGRAMS!! And whilst I’ve been saying all along it’s not about the weight… Hitting a milestone like 16KGS is definitely worth celebrating! I think it’s worth reminding myself & everyone reading this post that it has taken me over thirteen monthsContinue reading “Just a little lighter…”
On healing my “whole” self…
Over the last few years I’ve been working really on healing myself. Not my whole self (my kidney failure isn’t reversible); but my “whole” self. I started by increasing my therapy sessions. I spent time before I started dialysis doing lots of mental preparations. Learning how I could manage dialysis when the time came,Continue reading “On healing my “whole” self…”
A reflux baby
I’ve just started watching “The Cry”… I’m only 19 minutes in & wow! I never had any post natal depression or anxiety with my first. I really thought I had motherhood figured out. Oliver gave me a false sense of my own ability as mother. Then I had a reflux baby. Continue reading “A reflux baby”
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure”
If someone had told me five years ago that I would be Kidney Failure in my early thirties I would never have believed them. But when life gives you lemons… You really have a choice. You can screw up your face from those sour little suckers or you can make lemon meringue pie! (Or anythingContinue reading ““Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure””
Unplugging
My children took these photos of me this afternoon. While I was laying there in the park looking at the trees I was trying to find some peace. Trying to make peace really with my reality, which currently is making me sad & overwhelmed. Whenever I feel like this; anxiety increasing, sadness hangingContinue reading “Unplugging”
Anxious Avocados
Last night I had a mini anxiety attack over packing avocados for our weekend away. I mean like all true anxiety attacks it’s never actually about the avocados is it? But packing avocados certainly set it off. Now I say mini because I was able to come out of it quicker than normal & remindContinue reading “Anxious Avocados”
These are our golden days
Salty vibes & sun-kissed skin. Remember to soak it in. Slow down Chase the sun Collect seashells Build castles Look a jelly fish! Sandy toes Baby Cinos are a go go Explore the rock pools Pop goes the grapes Pandanus mandalas Breathe. Breathe together. Exhale. Soak it in. All of it. These are our goldenContinue reading “These are our golden days”
I am literally waiting for someone to die so that I can live
Chronic illness is all about waiting. Waiting to for appointments, waiting for tests and waiting for results. For me I am waiting to find out if I am in fact even eligible for a kidney transplant. I’ve been waiting to get on the transplant list, waiting until I start dialysis and now that I have started dialysis, IContinue reading “I am literally waiting for someone to die so that I can live”
Can we go to the Tip Shop?
One of my fondest childhood memories was going to the tip with my Dad on the weekend. I loved it because back in those days you were able to scavenge through the ‘rubbish’ and I would always without fail return with other people’s trash (which naturally become my treasure)!! It’s such a vivid memory andContinue reading “Can we go to the Tip Shop?”